fun fun fun

i have exams in about a week. and so i have lots os studying to do because i absolutely slacked off during the year and now the work has caught up to be, and is going to drown me.

ill try an blog but i dont think that i will be able to blog too often, not that i blog that often anyways. i should get back to studying. god its fun isnt it?

shall blog asap.

if only you could do a test with a gorgeous pen like that! i wish!

bundle of joy.

cupcakes. they are fashionably delicious. 

they are little bundles of joy, covered with icing sugar and sprinkles.

if there was anything that was cuter, i would die of shock.

how much do you think that they cost? channel cupcakes. like wow. i would pay so much for one of them, but then i wouldnt be able to eat it. id just take about five hundred photos. show all my friends, and then it would probably be be so long that it would have gone off and i would never have eaten it. sad huh?

gossip girl

i just bought gossip girl.

i lovee it so much. they are just so glamourous and hot, i just wanna kill them all. i wish i  was one of them.

do you think that there is a real gossip girl? like people who are that rich, and that gorgeous. they can walk around is anything and look absolutely fabulous.

i thnk all im going to do this weekend, is like sit and watch ALL day long. over and over and over again. im not weird if that is what you are thinking.

harry.

harry potter.

he is really cool. i want to buy the box set, of movies and books. i think im more set on the movies, than the books.

harry potter is awesome though. when i was younger, i used to wish that he was my brother. which, now that i thnk about it, its really weird.

ron is suchh a cuteeeyy.

and omg emma is THEE most gorgeous person in the world!!

arent they cuteee?

this is just gay isnt it?

oh and its my 60th blog. fabby isnt it?

hiding.

ever feel like hiding away from all the chaos and mess in the world? 

feel like you cant see people. like they dont understand you, and you just want to be away from everyone?

and that the voices around you might one day kill you and explode your brains.

sometimes i just wanna run away from everyone and everything. i want to have my own little world, where only i knew where i was. some place that was all mine. no one could fine me there, and i would be free to do whatever i wanted, in peace.

just those days that you want to be alone. just that ONE day. 

when people ask- are you ok? you say yes. even though you aren't. but what else are you going to say? oh yeah im just in a really bad mood becuase i cant handle your voice at the moment and i really want to kill you, if you dont leave me alone? no. you just cant say that to people. 

i hope to one day, just be wandering around, and find a gorgeous place, that no one knows about. a secret garden of some sort.

jason mraz. just ew

just look at him. like fuck is he ugly.

"he's so ugly"- say that in an english accent.

it pisses laura off when i say it. bcause she thinks that he is just SOO gorgeous. but really he is hideous.




his album cover looks like him. weird and ugly.


who agrees?

good or bad?

do you think that it is wrong to gossip?

becuase what i define as gossiping is- talking about someone behind there back and saying mean things about them.

it seems wrong. but if you think about- do you think that you want to be told that someone REALLY hates you at the moment, for a little thing that you did. i dont think that i would.'

and someone told me that- you have a right to your own opinion about someone else. you are not obligated to like them, so why arent you allowed to say it? just because its mean? well saying whatever you hate about them right to there face is mean.

everyone does it.

and then there are those people who say that its wrong, and that you shouldnt do it, and then the next second they turn around and start saying things about another person they dislike.

we only every seem to get mad at people when they are talking about someone you like. and then when they are talking about someone you like- you just sit there and listen. you dont want to say anything because here there are a WHOLE bunch of people who hate that person you love. if you say something all the negative attention is placed on your shoulders. and no one wants that do they?


so im not sure what to do?

sometimes you just need time away from people. they might be annoying you at the certain moment for no reason in particular, and so i feel that there is no need to confront them, when nothing is ACUTALLY wrong. why do they have to know that you are pissed, when you can get over it in one day? you just need to realease that anger that is bottled up inside of you. and once its all out in the open, its alright again.

so why tell that person? when it would just hurt them for no reason at all?

becuase of everyone gossips about someone, one time or the other. because if we didnt, one tiny little comment said from that 'annoying' friend, by litterally blow you head off.

love is over-rated

i wasnt havent an all to fabulous day.

it was quite depressing, but what's wrong with having an off day.

and no. i did NOT have psm. grrr

it was lunch time and i was just annoyed and said. love is over rated, happiness is over rated, everything is over rated. and then i think people were looking at me weirdly. which even though i am at times, i dont think i was being too weird today.

because the word love is over- rated. it over used.

"oh bye, i love you."

" hahaha, love you"

"i hate you, nahh i love you!"

love. love. love

wen do we really mean it? because have you ever said that you loved someone when really you didn't? cause i sure have.

although i still think that you can find love at this young age of 14, it is rare. it is like trying to find a needle in a hay stack. because the needle is definitely there, but where? and how hard and long are you willing to spend your time trying to find that needle? that ONE needle.

and im not sure- but is the needle represent love, or that boy.

and what is love? can you define it? i know i can't.

parents these days

do you think that parents are so up tight about there kids is because they cant bare to watch them get older? that they are afraid that if they dont keep them locked up in the house with nothing to do, they will grow independent and will never come home?

it seems like they want us to be keep babies forever, yet they say that they want us to grow up. which is pretty much telling us that-



I dont want you too poop around the house, but i want you to stay innocent.
I want you to be mature, but not too mature that you can talk back and be a smart ass.
They want you to be smart, but not too smart.



They want everything that cant happen.



Is it hard to see your kids grow older and more mature, and want independence form you? and if it is, why is it?


you have had about 10 years of them being relying on you, hand and foot, and finally they have a chance to be free from crazy little annoying kids. wouldn't you want to embrace that?

apparently not



dont you think that if you had shitty parents that you didnt like, you would want your kids to have a different life? and that if your parents were up tight shit heads, you wouldnt want your kids to have to suffer the pain that you did?



because it seems like all those up tight bitchy parents, had uptight bitchy parents. like fuck what is up with that?

im not sure what type of parent i would be. i dont think a very good one :P id be like DO THIS DO THAT. haha... greattt

shop till you drop

once you start, you cant stop.

its an

ADDICTION.

when i walk into a store, i just burst with excitement all all the gorgeous and lovely things you can get. its such a wonderful feeling that i just want to do it like every single minute of my life.

and the feeling of buying an object, and that it is yours forever. you can use it whenever you want to.

when did shopping become such a huge part of people's live? because if you really think about it, its just wasting money on things you dont need. at all. why do i need more shoes? or more shirts? or more dresses?  i already have to many as it is.

its very frustrating when you want something, but you know that you REALLY shouldnt get it, but you really want it. and it doesnt help your rational thinking when your friends are behind you saying - "BUY IT BUY IT BUY IT!!"

new moon.

im really stupid. this is actually my 48th blog. and i thought that the other one was. im like the smartest person in the world.... as you can obviously tell.


also- new moon is coming out soon. taylor lautner is likee fuckkk hot.



although i am extremely annoyedd that they are all over magazines over and over and overr again. like YAY the first time, but seriously, no one gives a fuck. except for the little 11 year olds, who even if they bought girlfriend, dolly, etc, would not understand a single thing in it.

when i was little i bought them, and they talk about boyfriends, periods, sex- and i did NOT understand and could not relate to it at all. at all!





-oh noooo!! im sooo uglyyy!





man i hate kristen stewart. she is a man! a man i tell you!!
- oh edward, i trust you.


BITE ME SLUT


she also smokes and does drugs. fuckerr. YOU DONT DESERVEE TAYLOR

she makes me go gaaagaaaa

i love lady gaga.

she is like da bomb.

she is so weird that she is cool. like man is she awesome.

i think that i am in lovee with herr.

id wrap her up in a box.

its an orbb

theyy made a horseey out of her. how awesome is that? if they everr made a horseey using me as in spiration, id like fucken crack it. but in a good way..

she is officially my favourite artist. everrrr.

Not really an all too interesting, its just beautiful pictures that i likeyy. And that i wish i was like.


Laura wants me to do a blog about her. So i shall be doing it later.

50th. Award

its my 50th blog. isnt that exciting?

and i got my first award, but i didnt even understand that i had got one. hahaha, im a bit weird.

im guessing, by copying catherine- that i have to write 10 things about myself.

1. I have very odd dreams. Like once i had this dream that my P.E teacher lifted up my top in class and said- This is what you call obese. and another time, i tried to kill a serial killer with a plastic spoon and some pins. FAIL huh?

2. I have one of those oil water things- you know where the water goes to the bottom, and its a different colour, and then there are fishes that float in the middle, and then one day i shook the things, so that the oil and the water would miss together, and no i have like oil blobs in the water bit and the water bits in the oil bits. its all very confusing.

3. I dont like running. Especially in heels and a dress. i dont like running at the beach ( unlike catherine) i dont like running on land, i dont like running on concrete. pretty much i dont like running.

- unless im REALLYY high, then i run around everywhere. im like a big crazy person.

4. I get high and then start laughing at everything. and by everything i mean EVERYTHING.

5.Im such a girly girl. I love to paint my nails, brush my hair, dress up and go out shopping. But yet sometimes i do very un-lady-like things. Like run up and down the street screaming at someone. Or sitting with on foot up on the chair, in a high class restaurant, while eating with my elbows on the table :P

6. I spend about half my life infront of the computer or the t.v. When i get home from school, i go onthe computer and stay on it until about 9:30

7. I have tried tomato sauce with sultans. It sounds like fucken weird, which it is. but :P it tasted quite nice. but then i tried it again, cause it did taste pretty good :) and it didnt. it was like lumpy sauce. not very appealing.

8. When i get nervous, i talk REALLY fast. like you should have heard me in my debate today. I was like aksjdhf;laksjd;fhalsnvd;aljwdf;lajs;ldjkf! but we still WON!! all thanks to me! cause i spent a ENTIRE day writing it. mhmmm.

9.I use to love Taylor Lautner so much, that i had him as a screen saver, and every night i would kiss it good night...

-You didnt do that? I dont either.

10. I can shape my tongue into a 3 leaf-ed clover.

Admit it, you just tried to do it yourself. hahahaha

I tagg these blogs.

catherine- her blog is like da bomb!

sabine- her blog is awesome. and she told me how to link you to herself. hahah

j- i dont know her personally, but her blog is awesome.

ever dream?

dont you ever wish that your life could be as gorgeous as the pictures?

could you ever be as pretty as the most gorgeous celebrity? and would your life ever go they way that you wanted? the fairy tale ending that you hear about and only dream about.

would you ever get the man or you dreams? the house? the wedding? would it ever happen?

and why was it that the lucky people always seem to stay lucky? then had everything that they wanted. and yet they wanted more.

can life be ever as simple as they say? never.

its hot.

today was so fucken hot.

like man im literally sweating buckets. gross i know.

and so someone told me that in summer it will each up to 55 degrees according to scientist. like FUCKKK. that is more that half melting point. its about 34 now. and i think that is hot.

will school be cancelled? lets hope so. but i thought that our school banded the hot weather rule-that we they weren't going to cancel really hot days. but what will anything good come to being at school on suck freaken hot weather?

we will just being sitting there moaning and groaning and not getting an work done at all.

and usually on really hot days- the teachers dont make us do shit.just let us chill give us some REALLY easy work (like colouring in) or we watch a video- that no one concertrates on anyways.

snow white and the mac apple

OMG!!! this is the awesomest thing ever!! does anyone know how to draw this well? cause if they do fuck can they draw this on my computer? id pay you like so much money!!

anyways its time for my best time.

it would be cool

remember when water fight were legal?

those were the days. when we were allowed to run around bombing each other with out hiding from adults.

we are in drought for how long? it seems like forever. seems like it will never end. how long can our world stay the way it is? without crumbling to pieces. when will global warming finally take us. and when it does- where will we go? to heaven? i suppose- if you believe in that stuff.

is there really a door? a big large golden gate that opens only to those who have done good? who is actually worthy to go to heaven? have you ever met someone that is really THAT good? that innocent? that free from sin to get into heaven.

or will we be burnt for all eternity in the fiery pits of hell?

and how about if you believe that people come back into the world as something new? how can you come back into this world when their is no world left?

will one day we all live on venus? or will everything EXPLODE. with absolutely nothing left?

what about if the world started again? a whole new era. and those people started from scratch what we have worked so long for? never knowing that before them, was once a whle civilization of people?

now that would be cool :D

change.

i know that im not the same as i was before. and i dont know if that is a good thing or not. ive been told that i have changed, but i dont feel all that different.

how is it, that little thing can change who you are? that one life experience can make your whole world fall apart.

Just think- f all the bad things never happened, what would you be like? better? or worse?

would live be COMPLETELY different? and would your friends and they way you are change dramatically?

remember when the tooth fairy and santa and the easter bunny were real? they would bring happy-ness into oh lives.

when we were little, the littlest things made us happy. remember living care free? those were the days.

i never appreciated the little things in life.

i take things for granted. but its hard to appreciate every single little thing. even though i should. how do you do it?

jila

when i saw this i was awwwwwwwwwww for like 10 minutes. its the cutest thing everr.

if i ever get a dog that is white, fluffy and ball like im going to call it JILA. you know like Jila's are like white and circular? haha. i know its lame but cuteeee

how cute would that be? no? fine. hahaha.