fly

do you ever look at something and just think wow, i wonder who has that. who lives like that, who life is just that perfect that they can have everything.

why is that the pretty people are the rich people too.

that the rich people are the luckiest too.

that because of your last name, people act differently around you.

why the beautiful are also talented.

on a lighter note- christmas is nearly here. i bought big bang theory. and i bought lanterns.

i love this moviee

sometimes i want to run and jump off a cliff, just want to feel the run of the air flying through my hair, i heart sink deep into my chest and just.

fly

not blogging.

i have no blogged for about 2 weeks straight. even more i think. and wow ive missed alot.

due to exams, me and my friend BEC, made a bet with each other, that we wouldnt go on msn or fb until exams were over. if one of us did, the other one had to give the other one 20 bucks. it seemed to work. we didint go on fb and msn. :) yay for us.

i feel like ive missed so much. study was stressful, exams turned out not to be as hard as everyone thought, and they didint mean as much as we thought too. we all thought that they were going to be about 20% of our grade, but turnes out that it was only about a seventeenth! like WHAT DA FUCKK.

anyways, i just wanted to apologize that i havent been blogging for AGES!

holidays are here soon. and school is nearly over and i dont think that i will be able to sleep for about a week alone becuase bec bribbed me to watch paranormal activity with buying me gossip girl :P

it wasnt as scary as i thought, but i still dont want to sleep alone....

fun fun fun

i have exams in about a week. and so i have lots os studying to do because i absolutely slacked off during the year and now the work has caught up to be, and is going to drown me.

ill try an blog but i dont think that i will be able to blog too often, not that i blog that often anyways. i should get back to studying. god its fun isnt it?

shall blog asap.

if only you could do a test with a gorgeous pen like that! i wish!

bundle of joy.

cupcakes. they are fashionably delicious. 

they are little bundles of joy, covered with icing sugar and sprinkles.

if there was anything that was cuter, i would die of shock.

how much do you think that they cost? channel cupcakes. like wow. i would pay so much for one of them, but then i wouldnt be able to eat it. id just take about five hundred photos. show all my friends, and then it would probably be be so long that it would have gone off and i would never have eaten it. sad huh?

gossip girl

i just bought gossip girl.

i lovee it so much. they are just so glamourous and hot, i just wanna kill them all. i wish i  was one of them.

do you think that there is a real gossip girl? like people who are that rich, and that gorgeous. they can walk around is anything and look absolutely fabulous.

i thnk all im going to do this weekend, is like sit and watch ALL day long. over and over and over again. im not weird if that is what you are thinking.

harry.

harry potter.

he is really cool. i want to buy the box set, of movies and books. i think im more set on the movies, than the books.

harry potter is awesome though. when i was younger, i used to wish that he was my brother. which, now that i thnk about it, its really weird.

ron is suchh a cuteeeyy.

and omg emma is THEE most gorgeous person in the world!!

arent they cuteee?

this is just gay isnt it?

oh and its my 60th blog. fabby isnt it?

hiding.

ever feel like hiding away from all the chaos and mess in the world? 

feel like you cant see people. like they dont understand you, and you just want to be away from everyone?

and that the voices around you might one day kill you and explode your brains.

sometimes i just wanna run away from everyone and everything. i want to have my own little world, where only i knew where i was. some place that was all mine. no one could fine me there, and i would be free to do whatever i wanted, in peace.

just those days that you want to be alone. just that ONE day. 

when people ask- are you ok? you say yes. even though you aren't. but what else are you going to say? oh yeah im just in a really bad mood becuase i cant handle your voice at the moment and i really want to kill you, if you dont leave me alone? no. you just cant say that to people. 

i hope to one day, just be wandering around, and find a gorgeous place, that no one knows about. a secret garden of some sort.